Church and God

So in life my saying is, "practice what you preach". One of the things that I always "preach" is never to judge and assume.

I amazingly didn't follow my own advice and made myself look like a fool this week. I admit this to everyone that I know because not only do I feel foolish, I am also ashamed.

It is difficult to understand the reasoning behind my assumptions and my judgmental actions, but in church today I was able to come to terms with myself and find that no matter what I do that I am not in it alone. I have a wonderful God that hurts with me, laughs with me, understands me more than I understand myself, and can take matters into His hands that always seem too big. It's amazing how a simple message of love can really enlighten your life.

The passage that was read today:

"But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed." (Isaiah 53:5)

I am in no way saying that I am the best Christian. Actually, as far as I'm concerned, I have a lot to work on. But, what I realize more and more each day is that God knows that I'm not perfect. If I were perfect, why would he have had to die on the cross? I am going to mess up, and I mess up a lot! But the best thing about messing up is learning from it and shaking it off. I'm just amazed to have a God that is always bigger than my problems and bigger than my attitude (which is pretty big). With Him knowing that we are not perfect, He humbled Himself to walk on earth and share love. His message isn't to tell anyone that they can't make it because of how they walk, talk, dress - His message is love. Love put Him on the cross - and love raised Him up above men! Love can conquer all and love can make the worst situation turn for the best.

That is my learning for today. It enlightened me - and I hope that someone else can be enlightened to know that there is nothing to big for my God and there is nothing too small to Him. Take what you have and just lay it at the feet of Jesus.

Staying at Home

So I never pictured myself as a stay at home mom, but the more I think about it and the more I'm at home it's really hard to want anything else.

Day care centers really aren't that bad, but it's been two weeks that both of my kids have been fighting off germs that they got from only 4 days of day care. They of course managed to share it with the whole family and I am just now starting to get out of the funk. Poor Jasper in his whole two months of living has already had more infections than I can stand!

The dilemma now is what can I possibly do to stay home with them but yet survive on one income. So far I haven't come up with anything. I look at day cares all over Albuquerque and I don't think that it's going to get much better - the prices however keep getting higher (which by the way, I read that the average cost a year for a baby is 7000 and that's suppose to include day care - I really want to know what city that was in because that would not be Albuquerque).

Now, besides the economical and day care side of it - I have really enjoyed my kids. It's been amazing seeing both of them learn so much. I think Tristan has honestly learned more at home with me than in daycare. He's singing, trying to count to ten, and trying to recite the ABC's... oh yeah, and he's my personal secretary to the random 1-800 numbers that call. Jasper has discovered his hands this week and has been attempting to roll over to see what he can do with his hands. If he was feeling better, he might actually enjoy the random times that he rolls, but for now he thinks it's the worst thing on the planet.

Decisions, decisions... I don't know when I became so indecisive. Either way, if anyone has some great ideas, send them my way!

What Grinds My Gears! Slow DOWN!

First off, gotta say happy birthday to my wonderful husband. I probably drove him nuts today by trying to make it a perfect day... but that's what wives are for right?

So, I'm outside today attempting to shoot hoops with my hubby (I think that's slang for playing basketball, no?) and like 3 cars in a row did at least 50 miles per hour down my neighborhood. This is a neighborhood with kids in almost every house!! Who does that? On top of that, I know that one of those jerks has twin boys that are under the age of 5!!!

Heed of caution, I might throw a rock at you if you go 50 miles per hour down my block... just think, what would Jesus do?

Sleeping is for losers!

Ok so as my first blog everyone should know that I have totally become the worst sleeper in the world! I used to be the best sleeper in the world until I got pregnant (again) back in July of 2009. Now, I hear everything and unfortunately after I'm awake it takes me forever to get back to sleep and then I only get in maybe an hour or two at the most!

Things that keep me up all night:
1. Paranoid Parent Syndrome - my kids make one sound and I'm terrified they're choking or need a hug!
2. Bad dreams - I've always had the most vivid dreams. Unfortunately anytime I have interrupted sleep I have the worst nightmares.
3. Loving hubby snores - ok, so I never noticed my husbands sleeping habits until I was up feeding Tristan (my oldest son). I believe they are getting worse too, it takes a blow horn to even stir him in his sleep.
4. My neighbors are vampires - ok so not literally but there are like three neighbors that are up at ridiculous hours of the night. Granted, there's a police officer and a fireman that live in close proximity but I don't understand the guy that is unemployed... really what does he have going on at 1:40 in the morning?
5. Sleeping is for losers!

What I think is great - I have three friends that are currently pregnant... they too will probably fall under the same spell and I will have people to talk to at night (sorry guys, but at least you know that you can call or log online and I'll be here!).

So, I just have to interrupt this train of thought and tell everyone that I am in the loft upstairs. My parents bedroom is sharing a wall right next to the computer and my room is down the hall a little ways. Mind you, both doors are shut to both bedrooms and I can totally hear my dad and my husband snoring in tandem. I don't know how my mom sleeps through that mess, haha!

With that, I will leave you with that pointless information a go watch QVC until I fall to sleep! Good night world and until next time...